Tears of Gratitude

Swami Prem Anugraha, you are lucky. This is not madness. In which the bliss flowers, in which joy comes, in which peace arises, in which the song resonates within, even if such madness comes, if the world calls it as madness, then too accept it. Such madness is praise worthy. You become crazy like Meera. It happens many a times that we want to become peaceful, silent, and thoughtless and suddenly are filled with the music within. Suddenly a poetic ness arises from within. That may be surprising for you but miracles do take place on coming to the feet of Osho.
Main kavi ho gaya hu tabse, kuch bheetar aisa lagta hai. (Since this wonderful happening, the words come out in the form of poetry).
You have not become an ordinary poet, you have become Rishi. In Sanskrit there are two words for poet. It is not so in the other languages of the world. One is poet and the other is Rishi. The poet is one who writes with imagination; he gets little glimpse of truth and beauty. And Rishi is the one who is not in the imagination; he starts living in that truth. His life itself becomes a poem. It is not surprising that Dadu, Kabir, Meera and Nanak have sung so many songs. All the ancient holy books of India are full of music, full of melody and are in the form of the song. We call the words of Krishna as Bhagwat Geeta. This is not a coincidence that all the Rishis kept on writing poems and those who did not write like Buddha, Mahavira and Osho, remember that their whole life was ultimate poem; their whole life was a song. It was in itself a sonnet. Even if there were no falls of songs through their speech but their pulsation had the rhythm of songs. Swami Prem Anugraha, you sing and dance. If it is madness also, it is acceptable.
Being Crazy in Divine Love
Prevent yourself from intellect whose result is sadness. It is a very strange world; nobody calls a sad person crazy, because there are crazy sad people all around, with long sad faces, crying faces. They are filled with the desire of freedom from the circle of birth and death. It is strange that we call them religious.
I have heard one joke that the word ‘gadha’- the donkey is the short form. It has ‘ga’ of ‘gambhir’- serious and ‘dha’ of ‘dharmik’- religious. ‘Gadha’- donkey. It means a serious spiritualist. No one calls them crazy. We see a happy person and we feel that he is crazy. Just think that a person walking on the street goes on smiling. Every one will doubt that he has no brains therefore he is smiling. There are so many sorrows, pain, difficulties in life and still this person is smiling, take him to the doctor for the electric shock treatment. We call that person as insane who smiles, sings and dances. That is why Kabir repeatedly entitles himself as “Kaha Kabir Deewana”. Meera calls her again and again as “Hey ri main to prem deewani” she herself says that I am crazy in love. She says I have become crazy. This craziness is more precious than your intellect.
I have heard about a philosopher who had negative vision. He used to search the reason for sorrow and sadness from everything. He had searching tendency. Remember that you will get what you search. Kabir has said “Jin khoja tin paiya”- one who searches is the one who gets. If you search bliss you will get bliss, if you will search sorrows you will get sorrows. There is everything in life. If you will go in search of flowers you will get flowers. If you will go to count the thorns you will get thorns. But remember that the responsibility is yours.
I have heard about the philosopher who also gave many justifications. One morning while having tea and breakfast, his wife said that you are unnecessarily so sad and disheartened. In life some positive aspects are also there, you should look at them also. That pessimist philosopher said– “I haven’t seen any positive aspect yet. For example I am applying butter to the toast. If coincidently this toast falls down then it is for sure that the side on which the butter is applied will fall down so that the toast is spoiled. This existence is the rival. If the toast side falls down we can have the toast by clearing it but always the butter side falls down. All the dirt will stick to it so that you can’t eat it. How can we be happy in this life?” His wife said, “let us experiment this today.” he was applying butter on the toast and holding it. Then he dropped it. Coincidently it fell in such a way that the butter side remained upwards. His wife said “Look I was telling the same thing. Be optimistic”. That philosopher said, “You have not yet understood. I applied butter on the wrong side. This is not the grace of God. This is because of my mistake.” A pessimist will find out despair from everything.
The True Miracle
You fill with love and gratitude. Let the poem arise and let the song emerge which is resonating within and celebrate. Don’t worry about this world that the world will call you crazy. You consider it as an award. Always the blissful people have been given this award. Drown more and more in your experience. This miracle takes place in the feet of Osho and definitely there is no bigger miracle other than this.
People say that showering ashes from the hands is a miracle. Some say that curing the illness is miracle; to hell with such miracles. Seriousness is the biggest disease. With Osho’s grace this gets cured this is the biggest miracle. What will happen with ashes? What will happen if one disease gets cured? Even a doctor can cure this. Where is the saint required for that? Saint is not to cure your disease. Many a times people ask my blessings so that their son should get married. I say first think that married life is a blessing or a curse. You tell me your story whether you are happy with your wife; say it or not life has become hell. You have come for the blessings for your son, don’t trap me in this trouble. I am not going to give the blessings. In future your son may abuse me that I got married because of your blessings. It’s not my responsibility. There can be only one blessing that is you become blissful. That is occurring in your life. You are getting surprised that you moved to become silent and how come the songs resonated? It happen such at times. We were walking on the path of meditation and suddenly the light illuminates within.
It happens sometimes that we drown in bhajan kirtan, we move with devotion and suddenly peace occurs. Sometimes we went to drown in silence and a song resonates from within. Meera went to Saint Raidas to ask regarding the idol worship and devotion of Krishna, but she reached to Saint Raidas, a miracle took place. Meera also drowned in the formless. Then she forgot Krishna. Even History has not paid attention to this. Before that Meera used to sing the songs of Krishna, the songs of longing ness, a waiting. After meeting Saint Raidas a miracle occurred; then she sang “Payo ji maine Ram ratan dhan payo”. Then she said – “Manva Ram Naam ras pejay”, the whole concept changed. The songs of longing ness were related to Krishna and all the songs of meeting were related to Ram within, God within and omkar within. “Pada gungharu bandh Meera nachi re”. Prem Anugraha, you also dance and celebrate. You are the proper sannyasi of Osho. Osho has said that this is the definition of my sannyasin.
‘Utsav amaar jaati , anand amaar gotra’
Celebration is our caste and bliss is our source/destination.